listen to this whilst reading it. ^
So you want to kill yourself? because no one cares about you. Your family hates you. Right? no. Your parents walking in your room in the morning to only find a dead body. They’ll try their hardest to not think negative, and to just think that you’re fooling around. Then they’ll start shaking you. Why aren’t you breathing? they’ll be broken. Tears. Many tears. More tears then than you ever shed. Was it them? were they the reason you did this? more tears. Pain. Every fucking day. Every night as well. Every single second. Guilt, more guilt. What about your best friends? they’re not going to care, right? no. What’s the first thing that will go through their mind when your principle comes in and tells the class that you’re not alive. While your best friend sits there in tears. You know that girl that you’d smile at but never talk to? she’s now crying. What about the boy who used to tease you a little in class, he’ll be shocked, devastated. He’ll blame himself. What about your teacher? thoughts crossing her mind. She’ll question if you did because she didn’t make school comfortable enough for you. Pain. Devastation. All in one. Who organises your funeral? who has to go through your stuff? clothes? notes? SEe if you kill yourself today, you’ll never know what might of happened tomorrow. You’ll never know because you’re dead. Plain dead. Not breathing. Not alive. Just dead. Your family hates themselves for it. Your best friend then falls into depression. Tears, tears, more tears then a river. All because you killed yourself because you thought noone would care, right? You are loved. By many. Someone right now is thinking of you, i’m thinking of you. You are beautiful. No matter if you’re black, white, gay, tall, short, over weight, under weight. You are still beautiful. You want to kill yourself? think about it first. There is no coming back and i promise, if you do it, you are not only hurting yourself, you are hurting many. You are creating more tears then you ever led yourself to. You are making everyone miserable and making them feel guilt and pain. Never will they feel whole like they used to when they had you. You are not alone. No matter what no matter when, i’m here for you. I know how it feels to be miserable every day you wake up and every night you go to sleep, i know what it’s like to have that jaw clenching, stomach tied feeling every second of the day. But no matter how dark your days are right now or will be, there is always a light at the end. Something will happen, something will make you change, you are never stuck. I’ve tried killing myself, god knows i’ve tried but for some reason i am still here and for some reason you are to, you have so many reasons to be here and to be breathing and to be happy. You deserve nothing less, please remember that and this is coming out from the bottom of my heart, i love you and you are so incredibly beautiful even if some people refuse to see it and even if you refuse to allow yourself to see it. You will be better soon, i promise. Just stay strong and don’t let your sadness overwhelm or confuse you into thinking that you dont deserve to be here, you were put on this earth for a reason and you will never know what that is if you give in.